After thought

Monday, May 29, 2006

Hey bao bei, my lovely little bao bei, my cute bao bei, my sweet bao bei, my sexy bao bei. Do you know how much u mean to me, I even cant believe it. I feel my other commitments in life arent so impt as u.

Even when I use to be so committed to a certain Hardcore game known as FFXI, right now, i only play it casually and when i call u, I dun play it, I dun go out and party and fight monster, coz i know i will be distracted, i wan to give my full attention to u when u call. Coz only thru calling, can i hear your voice. I wan to hear your cute voice, I dowan to hear silence, i like to hear u talk and talk and talk and talk. Esp when u have something to say.

Sometimes i may sound distracted, but thats becoz im tinking or could be distractions like frens messaging me, but i want u to know this, this distraction are minor. i will try my best. Haha multi-tasking , here i come !

I wish we have more time on the weekdays, we should meet for dinner more often, forget abt what our parents say, lets just meet. Can ? I dowan u to eat 2 times just for my sake. I wan u to enjoy your dinner, and let your mother know dun cook your share unless u call her. PLEASE I wan to meet u more often, at least on friday.

Jer finally became hero @ 12:29 AM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

I have hurt my dear. I never meant for it to be this way, I didnt even know I had hurt her. After she told me, I realise what a shithead i am. I felt angry , angry at myself, even after she told me its ok, I feel I cannot forgive myself.

For when I thought I had given her a wonderful time, I had only disappointed her. I felt stupid, I should have done someting. I thought this thing should never be an issue between the 2 of us, but it as reared its ugly head. She is right, I should have done something, but if I had not done it, does it mean I dun embrace the important date? No, it must never be stucked on to any important date that "something" must be done. But it would have brought a smile to her face. And thats all I want, a smile from her.

I owe her one, she got me it. I had a talk with her, almost cried, but didnt expect it to be this way. I didnt expect that out from her really , honestly. I thought we were above that. I then realise my mistake, that sometimes I have to show it other than words and action. I know my error, but I hope she doesnt expect it out of every important date. Really, honestly.

I have alot to learn, in this game of love. I hope i didnt break her heart.

Jer finally became hero @ 11:10 PM

Monday, February 27, 2006

My Dear

My sweet darling,
My lover,
My friend,
My supporter,
My Helper,
My Joker,
My Singer,
My financial Planner,
My one and only YANYAN.

U are one person, but u mean alot more to me. My dear, I want u to b by my side always. This 11 mnths have seen ups and downs, but it has only strengthen my love for you. I will always dote on u , even if i have commitments, know that u are always at the top of my list.

Jer finally became hero @ 5:44 PM

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Im back finally. Works been freaking busy. I have to OT almost everyday. Going back at 6 since like a priviledge. I hate it. Y must I spend lesser time with my GF , frens and family just for work. Sometimes, Singapore is just tooo competitive. They should change their thinking, like australia. They dun OT like crazy, u look and u c their shops mostly closes at 5. Man , Y are we like this ?

I wan to bring my dear out more often, but this is killing me. I m spending lesser time with her thx to a B I T C H a work. man she really have no sense of time. Dear, I'm sorry, I want to c u everyday, but work is shit ! man , how i wish i can work in a place without OT. I must find time ! GIMME TIME !!!

Jer finally became hero @ 12:11 PM

Friday, October 21, 2005

its the end of the month, and boy has it been exciting.

1st, Oct 15 .. who bday huh ?? oh ! my dear loh ahaha. Its her bday. and she had a chalet. Hope she liked my present. Had a memorable time at the chalet, but after all that, suddenly miss home.

2nd , i ORD on the 16 oct, woot . basket though , the guy suppose to return my IC... on leave 1 week ! fool , on leave dun pass responsibility meh ?

3rd, Went on the cable car with my dear, coz she mentioned it , then i wanted to surprise her ! ahaha so long never sit liao. still abit daunting when u look down.

4th, Got my 1st interview, the guy say my portfolio not fantastic, and i will admit, its not. Tats y im looking for job, do learn , to experience and to b a pro ! nobody starts of as a pro.

5th Got the job ... ahaaha today my 1st day, wasnt nervous, coz the place quite relax. can take out shoe, and my head quite understanding. He gave me some simple tracing job and a duplicating job in the afternoon. All done. Went over ger house to check on her becoz....

6th, Ger pulled out 4 wisdom toooth ! wow hers big big sia, alot of wisdom. I went to c her on thurs. She look pale and swollen. Thank God shes alive and well, operation was a huge sucess.
Y? becoz my ger today no more blood loss ! omg so fast. I lost so much blood during my 1st night. Heehee my ger pale pale , but still can joke joke with me.

Oct, def 1 i will never forget. I hope to always remain this way. Ger by my side, frens by my side, ahaha shiok. and ger, I will always help u one :)

Jer finally became hero @ 9:40 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Haha today, I am as round as a santa claus. I find that my dear is becoming more and more cuter, and prettier. being around her is never a dull moment. We can talk alot of stuff, anything under the sky. I am very comfortable with her, and my love for her has definetly grown.

My sweet dear came over to my place today, and watched finding nemo. We were hungry after that, seeing all that fish swimming arnd ahahaha. So we decided to eat sakura. Turns out weekend dinner close to 30 bucks per person. When we reach toa payoh, it was soooo full , they had a waiting list. Gasp ! so we decided to go cold storage and ntuc, and buy every known ingredient known to steamboat... and went home for steamboat ! we had fish, prawn, chicken, fishballs, hotdog, cabbage, chye sim, chicken stock and egg. Wah then we sat down at my house, turn on the steamboat (electric , no gas , no fuss) then bam ! instant buffet at home. Best , got tv to watch, got no one to bother us, and its soooo comfortable. I enjoyed myself today, and i hope to spend more days with her again :)

Jer finally became hero @ 12:36 AM

Monday, September 19, 2005

Recently, I attended a talk by a company my friend introduced. What the guy said rang truth, what do you want in your life. Everyone can say i wan to b rich , i wan a car, but in reality, are you doing anything to achieve that? Sure a job pays, but lets face it, employers nowadays are out to squeeze u dry. They have tons of people in their resume cabinet all with at least a diploma or degree. I have been thinking about this and after hearing them , I feel they are right, but theres one problem, setting up your business with no working experience. In theory, it sounds easy, but in the real world, experience counts. Think about it if you feel like venturing into your own business at such a young age.

Ahahaa enough about serious stuff. Just read my dear's blog. HeeHee make me smile until i look like a mooncake. I really hope i'm the right one and I wan to keep it that way. She is someone very special to me, and I wan to b with her even more.

Jer finally became hero @ 11:29 PM